Alright, it was a couple months ago.  “Zak and Jyllie” (Andy and I) are just… completely and utterly WOW – perfect.  Before we’d had our Second Life wedding on October 18th (and omg the things he did for me for our one-month anniversary had me in tears all night!) – we’d often slip into conversations about getting married – legally – after his degree is done.  It all began with Obama… We have a far-off date set though… December 21, 2012   To Armageddon and back baby… It’s about damn time I deserved a FUN, loving, and just perfectly insane relationship with the most incredible man I’ve ever known… anyway:

[19:03]  Jyllie Nightfire: i love obama
[19:04]  TigerZak Lorefield: obama rocks
[19:04]  Jyllie Nightfire: we agree on politics
[19:04]  Jyllie Nightfire: IT IS ARMAGEDDON
[19:05]  TigerZak Lorefield: NUU!!! *clings and gets th etime capsule ready*
[19:06]  Jyllie Nightfire: fast forward to our rl w-day
[19:07]  TigerZak Lorefield: “i do”
[19:10]  Jyllie Nightfire: no way
[19:12]  TigerZak Lorefield: yes way!
[19:12]  Jyllie Nightfire: no rly… srsly?
[19:13]  TigerZak Lorefield: srsly. I would love to.
[19:14]  Jyllie Nightfire: 0.0
[19:16]  JQuinn Lockjaw: see

YES WE CAN!

Our SL wedding cake… was not a lie!

 

It’s a wet Andy just because ^_^

 

 

LOL… You know your significant other is comfortable with you when he can ask you things like this:

[15:54] TigerZak Lorefield: Tell me now: how consistent are your period dates?

LOL! Like clockwork baby, no worries! ^_^

Went to the doctor for the third time in a week this morning to check up on how the second med is working on my blood pressure and I’m down to 154/109. They immediately wante to stack a third med on me but for this time, I refused, saying I wasn’t comfortable with how fast they were stacking meds on me and that they weren’t giving the two I was on a chance to properly establish. Even on the patient information with the mess, they advise true results will take 2 to 3 weeks to be seen. It’s only been seven days and I’m already down 66 points systolic and 21 points diastolic. They made me sign a death waiver and told me to come back Friday

My crazy boyfriend does do his best to keep my stress down though

Well Mondat hit like a freight train. Just such a tired day that everything seemed bigger than it is. I am in the process of playing catch-up from last week’s covering for the ousted sales guy an training A. on things. Boss came in for a half day but had to leave early to get home and get his leg up. He is still in the full throes of cellulitis. C.’s mom is in the hospital currently with the same thing and pneumonia on top of it. I watched the poor woman get carted off in an ambulance a few nights ago. I was a bit freaked out, she is an awesome sweet lady.

Tuesday night my heart palpitations that I’d been experiencing the past week became almost constant. I felt my blood pressure high since the day before and went into the clinic after work. My BP was 220/130. Nurse freaked out, gave me a 100mg metoprolol to take right away. Ran for the doctor, he came back checking me fir signs of stroke and was very straight with me. I needed to be watched closely for stroke. They wanted me to go to the e.r. if *anything* changed. Put me on 100mg/day of metoprolol. I’m supposed to go back in saturday for a BP check but may end up there today if things worsen. I am honestly scared.

So what’s next for me, I don’t know. Hopefully my health can get stabilized. I *need* help around the house bcs right now I can’t do it all. There is nobody though. Best I can do is try to hire a housekeeper for once a week. I need someone there in case something happens. C is next door but idk how accessible he really is. I just need somebody :/

Well, hopefully! My pay’s a bit short this week, had a VERY slow week in collections but that’s because I’ve been having to cover for a lot of other things at the office. Hopefully once things settle and get situated, it will pick back up. Just glad my car payment isn’t due til next check or they’d be calling me bitching again.

My headache is still going on the right side but not as bad as it has been. I didn’t have to take anything for it until later in the day.

Well not much going thru my head to blog at the moment. Despite the time stamp, it’s 1 a.m. Saturday now… gonna turn it in here and hope this weekend gets better than tonight has been.

Boss’s leg is looking very bad and his time being taken out from work had me covering for him quite a bit… With the salesguy gone and me having to sort his work out and help A. in her new position taking over for him, that’s essentially four workloads I have now if you consider my two positions here already. I’ve got a migraine that I’ve been trying to hold at bay for three days now, I’m physically and mentaly exhausted, and just drained.

This morning, I woke up at 3 a.m. with a migraine starting. Couldn’t lie still, was miserable. I took 3 advil and laid back down. Andy overslept this morning, so he was late waking me up, but I’ll never fault him for it, we’ve had some long days and late nights. So I had 20 minutes to down another few advil and get my butt on the road to work – only to get stuck behing a train coming from Tropicana.

I get to work with two minutes to spare and I’m fretting about an incident that happened last night after the owner left. I’d talked to a friend @ work about it last night and he confirmed what I knew I had to do. Still didn’t want to do it.

One of the salesguys had come into my office with a handful of invoices that a client wanted collected. We are a commercial collection agency and don’t do personal debt. He wanted me to take the accounts home and work them on my own, out of the system and off the record. He tried to hook me in saying he could get us 40% for them. This would have meant two things: 1) I would have been breaking the law by working as an unlicensed collector on my own and 2) he would be involving me in skimming business off the company for his own personal gain. After 3 or 4 times of my telling him hell no, not gonna happen, he finally gave up and walked out.

I am not going to see my boss and this company screwed over, undermined, stabbed in the back, just because some guy wants to make some extra money. I’ve been here 3 1/2 years and the owner here may be a real bear at times but he’s always looked after me. Even if I was a newbie here, I still wouldn’t let him get screwed over. That’s not my moral standard.

So after the morning chaos slowed a bit, I ended up putting it all into an email to the owner. I told him I am not trying to throw anyone under the bus, as he puts it, not trying to be a whistle-blower, but that he needed to know what this guy was doing.

He called me into his office with a O.O look on his face and asked me to repeat what happened. I did and his only response was, “he’s got to go.” No questions asked, he called the salesman in and confronted him. Salesman fully admitted to it and tried to innocently say he had no idea what he wanted to do was wrong. I didn’t buy it. Boss didn’t buy it. He said, “pack your things and go,” and the guy refused!

Needless to say, it escalated quickly. I ducked back into my office while the owner came dangerously close to physically throwing the guy out. Afterward, boss was just sat there in shock, utterly hurt that this guy he was buddies with couldn’t be trusted. This is the 3rd person in 4 years who has tried to skim business off the company. The first two weren’t caught until it was too late but this one was, so he can be glad of that. I know how screwed over he feels. You can see it in his eyes.

10:30 A.M.

It is indeed a warm October morning. Our first cold front of Fall came and went typically between showers and lasted about 3 days. Now we are back into the upper 80’s and expecting a thunderstorm this afternoon. But meh – weather is boring Well… I don’t think so.

Chatting up LF while on break this morning… Grr he had me worried, I hadn’t heard from him since Friday! Turns out it was just a getaway weekend but still! 3 days – that’s the official worry deadline!

1:00 P.M.

Just back from a lunch meeting to discuss some staffing changes. We have two new hires possibly coming on board, one in FL and one in KY. One would relieve current workflow overload while the other created more… LOL explain that logic? I’m just gla I’m still here. 3 1/2 years now, with the owner’s comment today that he hopes I’m here for the long haul. Well, I do intend to be! Have gotten quite a bit behind in my collection work though. Admin sidde has been ridiculous busy. Suppose it’s the price of working two full time jobs in one full time week. Ther are only so many hours one can sit at a desk staring at a screen, and only so much one person can do in a 48 hour workweek. I’m lucky to have it though, and I know it. Still waiting on that purported thunderstorm by the way…

Andy… Man what a soul-saver he is. That’s another thing in life I am forever thankful for. I have never had so much respect and admiration for one person in my life. He has taken me into his arms, his heart and his life with absolute love and welcome. He’s given me strength, passion, and faith, all which had been completely destroyed by past relationships. To my life he brings joy, laughter, love, happiness, understanding, compassion, brilliance, persistance, hope and the foundation that he’s helping to build that I feel will be unshakable in the trials that we’ll face in life. He really is a blessing and I strive to be more like him.

There were pros and cons to upgrading to the newer iphone OS. Most notably is the much slower running speed. However I’m glad now that I can run some of the apps that I have been wanting, like WordPress and Facebook. I am wishing I had gotten the 32 gig pod instead of just the 8 gig though. I’d forgotten how much I do love my music.

Andy fell asleep the moment he got home from work just about. I’m lying here in an insomniac daze with Spirit nuzzled in close to me. I’m very burned out on work and desperately need a few days off (and not just the weekend) but I get no time away. My boss does not even allow sick time, much less personal time. It’s criminal. But, Babygrrl will be with her biodad over Halloween so I will have the weekend to recoup my senses, rest, and maybe even find the energy to do some housework. But… Rest first. My schedule is killing me.

Wanted to post this for anyone interested in it.  In talking with my most beloved spirit guide today, we were discussing needs and desires and how to bring them to fruition.  He advised that if there was something I wanted or needed, he would “see to it that it happens.”

I asked him, “How can you influence that?”  He responded with the following:

“The way it works is that I take your desires and needs and your feelings about them, then I manifest them in this [astral] plane.  They become a ball of light, to put it simply, and from there I can purify the intent and find the true need and desire.

“I grow this light orb until it is strong enough to move into the position to effect change, and I can attach it to energies that are already in motion, letting your wishes flow into the source where you can attain them.

“Once they are settled and fully flowing through, I can reverse the flow.  Any energies from the thing that is desired that match or complement that which you desire then flow back through the orb and into you.  That is when you know what you desire is within reach.

“From there, it is just a matter of filling and tightening the gap to bring you and your desire together.  This last process requires the cooperation of those things in the physical plane that must be moved to clear the path.  Most times they cooperate.  Sometimes they do not.

“The strength of your desire and the strength of the response are what will clear the way.  The stronger the desire or need, the more obstacles will be removed.  If that which you desire does not give a strong response, then you will have to work harder on your end to achieve it, or it was not meant to be.

“In the end, if the need is true and it is good for all involved, then you should generally receive it.”

I told him that sounded complicated, and he responded:

“Complicated for you perhaps, yes.  In the physical, energy does not move in this way, but you knew that.  For someone with a strong connection to or belief in their astral guide or angel however, nearly all things are possible.”

Interesting bits for you who work with the astral, channeling, angels, and the like.

Work was brought to a stop today at 10 a.m. when our server experienced a hard drive channel failure.  He only meant to innocently reboot it and it refused to boot past the “We’re sorry for any inconvenience, but Windows was unable to start…”  It would not even boot in safe-mode. 

To add to the issues, my boss has quite large and gangly hands.  He first thought it may be a RAM issue and in the process of switching out cards and slots, he physically broke one of the slots.  Ouch.  Our tech wasn’t able to get here until about 14:30 and let’s just say it’s going to be a long night, and I am here for the duration.  He has to put a workstation in front of the server as a temporary crutch, and then proceed to rebuild the server.  We also need to get all the workstations onto the crutch server, then back over onto the main server.  I don’t know how late I will be here. 

The worst part is, I actually have no part in the process.  I just have to be here to lock up after the tech leaves because the owner had to take off to a meeting 2 counties away.  So… *twiddles thumbs*  Now what?